I’ve been a bad, bad girl
I’ve been careless with a delicate man(uscript)
And it’s a sad, sad world
When a girl can’t take a week of for vacation without feeling incredibly guilty.
(Apologies to Fiona Apple and all that was great about the 90s for that)
But yes, for the first time ever I did not work for a whole week during NaNo.
Not a day.
Not a weekend.
A whole week.
It was decidedly weird. I felt lost, untethered. Kind of like how Zenon felt in Zenon: Girl of the 21st Century when she gets grounded (literally) and sent to earth. Zedus lupedis, increased gravity is a bitch.
See! I’m so out of practice with writing that I’m making dated Disney Channel references!
But the thing is, I needed the break. My brain was fried and in no shape to do the overhaul that my MS needed.
Now that I’m back from break and back in fighting shape, I am ready to tackle the thing I’ve been dreading all Camp NaNoWriMo: THE ENDING.
Yes, it’s so terrible that I needs bold caps lock.
It’s so terrible it could be an Indiana Jones villain (Indiana Jones and the Terrible Ending…which is kind of what Crystal Skull was).
It’s so terrible I want to spell the word “turrible” just so you can understand how ridiculously bad it is.
And why I deleted all of it.
Yes, I am doing the ending over from scratch. Like that time I attempted to make macarons, it was too awful to look at. And too much of a disappointment (and I really wanted those macarons).
So now the month of July will be all ending, all the time, until I come up with something I like.
I’m diving back in.